Right to the EDGE!Right?I mean really— I was right on the edge the other night—I was getting very close—I was crying out to God for relief—absolutely at the end of myself—and the next day—an offer on the house and a done deal.
There are many ways I could go with this—many ways—but the issue for me was not that I was belly aching and God bailed me out.I wasn’t belly aching.I was truly broken hearted, really in need of a touch from God.I laid it before Him all day—I was literally crying out to Him for relief from the pressure of living in 2 places, the pressure of knowing it would have to be a movement from Him and I could not make it happen—this was going to be His deal period.
I came to Him though—I cried out to Him.I didn’t go to anyone else.He and He alone was the only one that could hear my valid cry.God and God alone was the only one that could bring an answer—the sale of the house.It was God and God alone that finished it.
I could go on and on, but I won’t.It was like David crying out for relief—and God in His timing answered.Same for me—it was honest, down to the bone, sheer heart hurting and God heard my agony and brought an offer.
So?So the Scriptures are real—I continued to remember this verse—
“Notemptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.” 1 Corinthians 10:13
No, I wasn’t tempted.But I was under stress beyond what I could bear.Really?Yes.I had enough—I was tired, worn out—completely beyond what I could bear.I was gone and God brought relief!
no house sell yet... getting a little frustrated... lil bit
October 21, 2009
The “Unshakable” series has been great!Absolutely right on.The life of Joseph after being thrown in a well, sold into slavery, wrongfully jailed…is certainly a lesson in adversity.No doubt I have never faced that kind of adversity.But…
These past few months—living separated from Marcie and Cooper so that Cooper could go to school legitimately and possibly play for the hockey team has been difficult.The waiting game on the house to sell plays havoc with me—while wondering what the right price—how much to continue to spend on an apartment, the lack of communication with Marcie—all while trying to build a “next generation ministry” is beginning to take its toll on us.
Should we have just kept Cooper here in West Chester and continued the commute?After all, Marcie has been commuting for 10 years and I have been doing it for since the end of 2007.I know that Cooper was not connected at Far Hills and I know that he is connecting to people at Fairhaven and Centerville—should we have still done it?
The hassle of living apart from Marcie means that as a couple the times to discuss issues is either done via the phone or over a quick dinner so that I can drive home to let out the animals.Is it worth living in 2 places right now?
The issue of ministry—out every night with relationships to build, with ministry to do has of course value—it is my job—but at what price?Then again, am I thinking correctly?Is this adversity part of a plan?I am having tough time dealing with it today and tonight.I am not sure that this plan makes sense.After all, a house payment, an apartment payment, and now we found out that in order to make hockey legit, we all have to move into an apartment, get proof of our living there and live there… which means that the animals must make the trip, or we push them out on other friends and family.
I am struggling tonight—it is not the adversity of Joseph.I don’t have an illness, Alex is good in Australia—but there are other factors that I am not able to write about—too much to write—anyhow—the enemy is attacking, I am feeling it—we are all feeling it.
Is it worth it?Are we strong enough?Am I strong enough? Where is God in all this? Is this His plan?
I know that it has been a long long time since I blogged.It seems like a whirlwind since I started back at the Haven—Fairhaven that is…Nevertheless, it truly has been a rush of sorts.Transition, learning the “vibe” of how the staff works, learning new people and of course getting reunited with many from the days back when.
All in all it has been great- working with Kevin, Jane and Dave as the youth staff—building a team a new small group leaders, working on Uprising—developing long range strategy, and so on—all very, high important areas for sure.
Then there is the house situation—living in 2 places—apartment life, house for sale—on and on and on.It seems everyday is a day of letdowns, movement forward, and forward and then, a step backwards—sometimes life in itself is a major test—let alone the issues that God may just have a hand in and on.
So, nothing major to report—except—in this life style of ministry—there is no doubt that all of this—the daily things, the relational things, the minutia, the big, the little are all for the glory of God.That being said, do they all feel good?No.Do they make sense?Not always.Does life dole out everything correctly?Nope.
So through this whirlwind called life—I sometimes wonder what God is doing—I tell Him, I ask Him, I seek Him, I cry out to Him—and in this time—I am remaining honest, authentic, and certainly trusting in Him to keep us (the Solin family) doing His thing.
Continue to pray for us—the devil would like nothing more than to side track us, discourage us--- so I, we continue to need the prayers of our friends to see us through.Yes, this blog is about my “sojourn” of ministry—my life—whether I am working at the church or working at a different kind of job—my life is still about His ministry.
